The past few weeks haven’t exactly been what I’d call “fun.” Sure I have tons of free time to do whatever, whenever and I don’t have to worry about school. I am back in a city that I love, rather than one I only tolerate. And I don’t pay for food, rent, or gas. It sounds perfect right? Yeah no it kinda sucks. Graduating is easy, guys, adulting is harder.
With all this free time I have, I’ve spent a lot of it on this blog and making changes. I want to up my game so to speak so that I can grow this blog and my brand. However I have been getting disheartened by all of it. That it is not growing fast enough, that I’m not making much money from it, and that I feel like I can’t ‘compete’ with the bigger name bloggers. By compete I mean hold my own and try to make my brand and voice stand out, but lately I’ve felt more silenced than amplified.
Sounds like I’m just complaining a lot, yes? Well, the past couple of weeks I was. But then I got to thinking, “God I am so lucky that I get to do this. I get to live rent-free and spend all the time I need on myself and this blog. I could have a lot bigger problems to worry about.” After realizing that I also realized that I need to stop comparing myself to other bloggers. These wonderful ladies that I look up to have been blogging WAY longer than I have, and I’m sure they have gone through similar timelines and struggles. After thinking about this I have come to a conclusion about the immediate future of this blog.
I will stop comparing myself to the bigger blogs and focus on myself and what makes this blog unique. It is ridiculous to try and wear all new pieces of clothing in every blog posts because it’s impossible. I don’t have an endless supply of clothing or a bank account big enough. So, I am becoming more okay with re-wearing my clothes on this blog and I will be making my outfits more realistic. I’ve re-worn plenty of pieces but I will not be ashamed to do so anymore. Because that is how real life works. I own a washing machine, have a limited bank account, and I don’t get sent tons of free clothes. I am proud to do this and I hope that this new confidence translates into my blogging.